hey you

"It's easier to kill a good man, because you only have to be insane; it's much harder to be sane enough to kill a bad man."
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Fucking scientists and how they make me worry about my own psyche.
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When I ___, I'm not sure of what I'm trying to accomplish.
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It's weird that I ever dreamt about you.
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gorgeous, baby you're gorgeous
you're so gorgeous it hurts, to be honest.
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i really never know what i'm expecting when i go out to find you. the best case scenario is that your news is only SOMEWHAT discouraging. worst case is that you found a secret hiding place and never even planned to tell me about it, leading me to get lost myself. or that maybe i discover that you've actually been running away from me this whole time. although i admit that sometimes i wonder if i'd prefer that you stayed lost.
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sound fx and commercial breaks
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you are finally redesigned! thank god, you're not such an eyesore anymore
(goddddammn you look so GOOD. amazing what a fresh coat of paint does.)
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meh, i just cover it up with laughter. i forgot what it was like for my friends to mean something to me. or to have a friend that actually knows me without either pretending or basing me off of assumptions. whatever i'm fine with these transient friends for now.
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you laugh at my terrible jokes, and always give me a smile when our eyes meet. maybe you're just being nice.
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I wish I could confidently say that it's "Not healthy to dwell on the 'ifs' in life" without needing someone remind me
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fuck. i'm not selfless enough.
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lol. i wish for petty things. either you have your own, totally separate small thoughts, or you have more important issues than something as insignificant as a mere person.
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hey you! i've been trying pretty hard to get your attention. i can never think of anything to say, though, because every time i try to think of something, i get distracted just by glancing at you. goddamnit, you're beautiful. i know you're so used to hearing that, but i can't help myself from blurting it out; you're just too mesmerizing. wow.
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you are irritatingly ugly. inside and out.
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"fuck girls"
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you just smile and nod and pretend to care about what they just said
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you woke up, so i died
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i haven't been happy in months/is this just... how life is supposed to feel? is it normal?
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wow i guess it's true how little you care now
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