maybe i just wanted to be among those stars, alone and forever in peace
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avoiding you means avoiding heartache
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more than you know
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nameless faces elicit no guilt
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any uncertainty worries me
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Do you notice that I avoid the topic? I don't know if I should when I do, because I know during all the time we ignore what's between us, you are developing what you have with him.
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the silent majority
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you are everything
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either you tire me, or i'm just tired of you
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it's because you take us for granted
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running toward something means you're running away from something else
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what do you think when you look at yourself in a mirror?
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i had thought your dreams would be for me, before him, but i guess i was wrong
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just let go; I'll catch you
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dream>ponder>wish>imagine
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living life is no problem, no matter what happens
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do we mean anything less as we stand here among a sea of faces
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it's fascinating to see a man and woman with hands held in a crowd
their two lives, to each other, are absolutely everything in the world
it's a contrast to how i've learned to ignore them among the sea of faces
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a completely different murder
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lyrics don't need to rhyme
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you hand out purposes in life
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"why worry"
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i won't say anything because i clearly know far less about you than i thought i did
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occasionally, i hate listening to music, because there's always a lyric that applies exactly to my current life situation. i just want to listen to music to get away from life, not to be constantly reminded of it
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I'm assuming that you wonder if these are about you. Some are, some aren't; it's just that the topic has been on my mind a lot, so more phrases relate to the situation, but not necessarily ours. Don't worry (if you are) over the extent that it affects me. I'm okay.
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? I didn't delete it, glitch?
ReplyDeleteI was talking about "Say Hello to Forever"
ReplyDeleteOh, in that case, yeah,
ReplyDeletebecause I am no longer sure about 'forever'.
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This is blog 1
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I thought GN was a constant, the brothers probably less than so.
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Yes to both Re:'s
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Thank you. I'm trying to be, at least.
What's going on between you and George now? I know this is bad to think, but I can't stop from telling myself "At least now I have more a reason to be jealous of him." It used to be weird to know that before, while we were mutually jealous of each other, he had more of a legitimate reason. I've never actually been in that position. But now it's back to how it always is. You can go ahead and say I'm weird. Haha.
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You deleted your blog title again. Does that mean anything?
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Btw, you left some questions/statements unanswered. Just saying. Haha.
I know, I didn't know what to say so I figured I'd tackle them later on.
ReplyDeleteI dunno
He is being kind of detached (from me). But he has his reasons so I respect it.
I was tired of the title.
Do you remember why you opened your blog? Now that I think about it, I can't. At first it was a notepad for 'thoughtless' thinking and free writing, which is why the very first post was a homework assignment that inspired me to write a certain way. Then it became a place to vent because I didn't like venting to other people. Now it's just frustrations I can't say to peoples' faces or things I don't want to confront.
Also, you're not weird at all :)
Well I'd just like to say that I was hoping that you'd respond to all of them.
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I opened my blog as a place to put down random thoughts I had while I was on my Asia trip over a year ago.
Have I told you that that was probably the peak of how much I thought about you? It rivals the amount right now. You said you were looking forward to stories, so I wrote down logs all throughout the trip. Trust me, there was a LOT. I never got around to giving it to you, because I've always been embarrassed to let you know how much I thought about you. I still have it somewhere, actually. I'm still embarrassed, haha.
But I digress.
I have to say that was also the peak of my thoughts for you, too. Haha.
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Well here goes.
I don't want to forget you either (duh), and I'm glad you don't. I'm sorry I don't feel the same way, I think it's because I've always known it wouldn't work out and gradually tried to 'forget' that aspect surrounding you. I still remember, though. This situation doesn't cause me as much grief as it causes me worry. Or maybe a bit of guilt. But don't worry about me, this is about you.
This does help me understand you more, it does.
I've been trying to change (for the better, of course) but I think it's taken a toll on how I asses certain situations. Especially this one. It's not in a bad way, but I've been trying to dissociate myself from the rest of the world and evaluate the way I live. I know I'm being hypocritical in this situation, giving you the excuse that "I'm not ready for that sort of thing". Although I was honest at that time, I guess I should have clarified. I'm not ready for that sort of thing, with you, because it's been so long. I guess my feelings have changed and I don't think I should/can reminisce on it now. I'm sorry. I feel bad for bringing this up, twice, and not bringing you any closer to peace. But it is better that I tell you rather than hide it from you, I think.
sorry if you've been waiting, my mom's here
ReplyDeleteit's okay
ReplyDeletei'll respond later, promise
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