old life, new stress

mirrors/hindsight/20/20

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I still have too much to learn.
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You are on my mind all of the time.
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I hope you exist somewhere
(the perfect one is out there/someone somewhere) is saying the same about me
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well I guess the sharp pain I felt when I heard the news about you two confirmed it
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simple phrases seem to carry more weight when in the context of a song - is the standard of writing lower?

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Someway, somehow, the most important was saved for last
maybe life is saying to me
to just give it up; that we were never meant to be
it's saying to just let the past be the past

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Excellence, Strength, Openness, Worldliness, Compassion

notes: strength = mental and physical

excellence - vague but useful to motivate myself to be a better person overall
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I didn't fully appreciate the scale of this place until I raised my eyes upward, away from the floor, and recognized its grandeur
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Your Friend to you: "You guys are champions of existing."
I have no business in knowing you, but god do I wish to be a part of your life.
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From Mead Memo Notebook (2004-2005?)

SI = story idea

You've gotten me into a lot of trouble, you know... every boy I meet is furious at me because I was the one lucky enough to be chosen by you.
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[to be used to describe breaking up with a girl I never truly loved]
I felt more like I was losing a friend, rather than someone I loved.
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don't cry for me
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SI It started off small... like I'd see a few lines etching themselves out to be a name and that'd be it. But now, everywhere I go, I see graffiti. (does not realize he is the one creating it)
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what do you do when you lock eyes with the one you love, and you're pained that they only notice you for those few fleeting moments? What do you do when every time you hear her laugh, you go through agony because you know that you will never be the one to make her laugh?
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exmorbidness/morbidity
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___ abounds
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end phrase in "This I Know"
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mercy me
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I cry silently every time we're on the phone with each other,
But you'll never see these tear-stained cheeks of mine
I sometimes try to show you that I am crying
Only so you'll never say "He doesn't care for me."
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It's the little things that make me know that I love her
It's how I keep my cell phone with my after all of our arguments
Hoping that she'll call to apologize
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they compose poems to their knives
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We both waited up for each other, but I'm sorry I wasn't there to catch you
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You can take your thoughts and you goddamn easily manipulated mind and stop everything. It'll at least make me hate you a little less.
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you get songs written about you
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"guilt-free zone"
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SI "Love/Sincerely, New York"
entire story written from perspective of the city itself
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all our memories are coming back to me
if only you came along with them

Most of this blog is stupid heartbreak stuff.